A plastic smile

One of my several bad qualities is that I don’t smile , if I don’t actually feel like it . I would be sometimes absent minded if I am in the middle of work and may stare at a very well known face without a smile that may make him feel transparent. I don’t smile if I don’t know the person , I am not the kind who smiles at all friendly faces.



I was lectured many a times for my unfriendly attitudes- still did not change much. I still remain a very unfriendly person on encounters , at least the first few of them. Even then I have many good friends ( their fault) .Recently I was Told over and over again , that I NEED to Smile !!!! I was wondering .. DO I NEED to smile…..even if artificially? Why do Others feel My need to smile!!! Ha ha may be they NEED my smile? Huh? Complicated needs!!!



But I do laugh a lot , I do roar and make noise and laugh , but that is only in the circle where I go well with and only when I am relaxed .In the middle of work or when something is on my mind I am bloody well without a smile, a smug face and a totally no nonsense. But most of my colleagues and friends and others got used to my ways now –probably they did not have a choice .



I tried to look at the mirror in the bath and smile at my face. IT reflected a stupid face – all out of control and very unlike me. NO , that was Very artificial ? Oh – is that the point I was thinking of? An artificial plastic smile does no good to an ordinary face which is otherwise ok to bear with. I hate artificial smiles and people who adorn that plastic smile on their faces. I would feel better off with a stern or angry or sad face than a face that reflects a smile that says - all that he is showing u is artificial.



To smile artificially, without letting the other one know that it does not originate from heart – needs great talent. I salute the people who can do that. But I hate all plastic smiles. And even plastic emotions. I need to start accepting these plastics to be able to do it successfully. May be I have allergy towards duplicates..?



Still , now a days I am spending too much time in the bath. My friends screams at my door wondering what me is doing in . I tried to tell them- that I am practicing to smile. they looks at me with their strange ex-pression on face …I did not try to explain further…



When everyone says and wants me to put a bit of plastic, let me , na? May be I will win a few artificial hearts in the process? Not a bad idea at all!!!

what u say guys?????
Should i make it my new year resolution?