Pal bhar ke liye ..............

I am feeling very very lonely today.... :((((
i dont know what is the reason... :(

okkk chalo kuch reason likh hi deta huin...
hmmm.......... Pal bhar ke liye koi humein pyaar kar le.... jhootha hi sahi ooo... pal bhar ke liye koi humein pyaar kar le .. jhootha hi sahiiiiiiiiiii....

OrKuT --------> The real culprit...

Most of the people in this world agree on one thing, that Microsoft is the devil in Computers field but I beg to differ a bit, as far as I can think the real devil these days is not Microsoft but a certain company called Google which is trying its best to screw our lives by two of its products viz Gtalk & Orkut. "Dazed and Confused" are you??? Lemme explain…
Until a few days ago, I used to think of gtalk and orkut as a gift of Google to mankind and nothing could have been better than orkut in uniting long lost friends and meeting new and interesting people. I have met many people from my school with whom I never talked much and now we are quite good friends but … then as the popularity of this Orkut started increasing, and parents log started to know about it and so on they started asking about it and you had to tell them about it.
It all started one day when my cousin was showing my orkut photos to my mom and then there was a pic of me having hukka and since the time my mom has seen that photo, she is always like " beta tune kab se smoke karna shuru kar diya", "Chhod de beta please" and I am like "WTF ORKUT!!" and that pic was of a time when olla taught us how to have a hookah in a ratan's dhaba and I was being accused of being a smoker.. Chi!! Chi!! Chi!!!
Ye sab was all fine until some relatives of mine from the (older) generation decided to join orkut, so now I have a whole bunch of mamas, mausajis and mamis on orkut and with each passing day I get a new scrap which goes like "aur beta kya haal hain??" ,"aur beta job kaisi ho rahi hai??" and the thing is I can't just tell them mujhe nahin add karna aapko mujhe apni personal life personal rakhni hai aap logon se.. Now they see each and every photo of mine, every time I chat with some girl next day comes a scrap from somebody, " aur beta badhiya hai, kisse baat ho rahi thi kal… " well thankfully they are not like scolding me or sumthing… but I am sure this is gonna land me up in big trouble someday, I just hope that day doesn't come…
This reminds me of the story of a friend (gal) of mine who left orkut coz uske relatives peeche hi pad gaye the uske… They used to scout the profiles of each and every friend of hers and somehow found out a photo of hers with her boyfriend and then to her life was just Bhagwan bharose!!
Till orkut it was fine coz it is not my day to day life but when they started to come on gtalk this has meant the end of life to me… This means I cant put up statuses like pyar ishq aur mohabbat, Now on every status message I put and if they are online. I am asked why do you have this status message and then I have to tell them some story

All these things have assured me that Google without any doubt is the real devil and no company can come close to them when it comes to screwing off young and innocent kids like me. I just hope my family members don't stumble upon this blog of mine or else all my freedom will be gone.…

Song of The Day :- Rehna tu by A.R rehman(master piece)
A line worth for:
When you are a little boy!! You don't have to go very far to find the centre of your universe…. Mom!!!

Someone tagger me on this ..... :)

I am: confused about who I really am. I change very often.
I think: therefore I am exist
I know: you will not read this post till the end.
I want: true meaning of life...
I have:.........................................
I wish: I had more love n more luck!! I know I’m so greedy :D
I hate: nothing at all! I became all that I hated, so I stopped hating.
I miss: the winter of 2007 and 2008 coz im in chennai :(.
I fear: weekends, same old boring ... roommates say no i wont go out anywhere... i will take rest .. what rest yaar...
I hear:my inner voice now... :)
I smell: like .... :) hehe
I search: for good girl...:) .
I wonder:How god created this beautiful world.
I regret: being the last in line when god was giving out ‘sense of humor’ to the world.
I love: uncle chips!! bole mere lips .. i loveee. :P
I was not: the same person yesterday!
I cry: when I cannot make you cry!
I believe: India is a developing country!! :P wtf!
I dance: like a true Punjabi!
I sing: in the bathroom.. its really amazing! :P
I read: what people learnt from their past relationships on their orkut profiles! So please update your profiles if u still haven’t! Someone genuinely cares :P
I don’t always: joke around! Someone please take me seriously!!!
I fight:for my rights :(
I write: love notes on walls of historic buildings!
I win: pillow fights on facebook!
I lose: my temper very easily! now changing this thing.. hope it should work out.
I always: look at what people on other tables have ordered before I order for myself!
I confuse: mostly myself!!
I listen: only when you talk sense.
I can usually be found: on gtalk! I know my life sucks! :P
I am scared: of global warming!! and being insecure.
I need:some peace of mind.
I am happy: on my birthday... i feel like im the richest...
I imagine: your state if you’ve really read this post till this dot---> .

Transition

Losing a sense of time is an easy way to lose one's grip and even one's sanity.
- Nelson Mandela

I know I’ve already mentioned here once before that I feel even though life has given me a lot in the last four months, I simply have no account of what I have gained from or lost to it. And it definitely wasn’t a nice feeling, just pure lack of control over my life.

Not knowing enough about the outcome of my actions; not knowing what my next action would be; not deciding my actions based on what I wished to learn; feeling as if time just flew away; not knowing my long term goals and a lot more was creating a void of its own in my life, which I was trying to fill with lesser things, unimportant people and their views.

But none of it felt good in my heart.

And in a very “agar aap vote nahi kar rahe hain to aap so rahe hain...inko chai pilao” type moment, I met somebody who opened my eyes to this void and the fact that I already knew what I needed to do to fill it, but I was just not doing it.

And then I realised if now I don’t take account of my life, it will definitely pass me by. I needed to have my own foot on the accelerator of my life and my own hands on its steering.

And I am really happy to be able to write this here that I’ve now started doing things which have made the path I am walking visible to me. I finally have a to-do list and short term goals all clearly laid out. And trust me, it’s a great feeling.

I won’t say now I have absolute control over my life. I don’t know if anybody can ever have it. But having a destination in mind sure makes the journey easier.