I beleive therefore I am

I found this on one blog .. but the same thing is happening to me also.. so without any modifications, i am writing this here 

One thing has always been in mind  i.e. ” If i do wrong with anyone,be it physical,mental or any other way .. the very next moment God punishes me with small/big accidents,ill health,same thing happening to me …. and if at all i forget in my ego or pride that i did wrong to anyone, these punishments always remind me”  and I totally believed that it happens with everyone around!!!
I always believe in the above but somehow its slowly going away… the faith in this is just going weaker….
i see wrong people/friends getting stronger and stronger and they dont even realize they are doing anything wrong… if by chance I opened my mouth and tried to make them realize tht they were wrong … you know what i got???  thrown out of their life/friendship or whatever you can call…
My Nature:  if a stray animal is treated badly, i take a stand for it and take some action so that it is not treated like tht again…. same applies with human being… if i see someone is treated badly for no mistake of his/hers, i take tht person’s stand and try to explain the rest that “guys wht u are doing is totally wrong and am not going to be a part of it but support the other person!!! ”  ….
now does that mean i am standing against my friends? i just took the side of the truth which has proper evidences tht the person is infact telling the truth!!!
i didnt do any back stabbing … if i took a decision or took some action, i made sure my friends knew about it beforehand….
so why is this ill treatment?
so, i stand for goodness and all i get is cussing and more cussing !!!
i am so so so much frustrated right now.. already many more things are not leaving my problem-plate and now this!!!
day and night i keep thinking, what to do… my inner-self or ego is so much discouraged/damaged…
all i want right now is that they realize what they did to me was totally wrong and get back together …
this is not for them!!! yes i am being selfish here.. this is for my self confidence which right now says “Dhiru ... Just stop believing in people and be selfish from now onwards.. friends care a shit about u ..they just use you and thts how u will be from now with others” …  if this feeling has to go , then definitely i want them to realize what they did to me was totally wrong and we all get back together … o yea i m writing it again …  bass bahot hua bakwass!

Kal mere office ki Light Chali gayi

just going through my gmail archives and found some simple and sweet words...

Aaj hamare office mein light chali gayi. PC band , AC band .. uff jaan nikal gayi

kaafi der jab 'bijli' waapas nahi aayi
kisi ko window ki yaad aayi
window khuli.. thandi hawa se pura floor bhar gayaye
hawa..jo..roj chalti hai .....


elevators nahi chal rahi thi
 kuch logon ko stairs bhi dhundni padi
 aare ... stairs toh jaldi pahuncha deti hain
 haan ye such hai..and ye stairs baaki days pe bhi yahi hoti hain


aur maine kya kiya ...maine usse dekha jo khidki se bahar dekh rahi thi
 woh haansi ... achi dikhti hai yaar...haan bhai.. woh roj hi achi dikhti hai ....

she asked ... walk ? ..maine kaha haan chalo ..we talked and talked ..
 'project','C++','coding','no issues','mail','reply' in words ke binabhi kaafi saari baaein ho sakti hai doston..
 by the way ....she has chin dimple..when she laughs that is

tumhara favorite actor kaun hai .. mera shah rukh ..she said
 maine kaha mera bhi ....she asked really ? kyon ?
 i said nahi tum hi bataao .. (saala fus gaya)
 aur .. actress ..usne puchcha
 sharmila tagore ... i said. she said ..aare but she is so old ...
 maine kaha aarey pura to suno..sharmila tagore ..ki.. beti soha ali khan ..
 she said "auh.. very funny" (girls say that a lot hai naa!)

6 baj gaye ...she said ab ghar hi nikal jaatin hoon
but no... light villain banke wapas aa gayi ..i said .. ab kya... kaam ?
 she said haan aur kya ...hum wapas nikle ...kuch log ghar bhag rahe the..
ek ne chalte chalte .. apne pm se phone pe kaha ..sir ab toh main ..bus mein baith gaya hoon
and woh chal padi hai ..will send that doc tomorrow ...
we looked at each other .. she laughed again .. her dimple ..

toh .. hum pahunch gaye apne apne cubicle
saarein log toh bhaag gaye the
aur hum dono ne ....apna apna kaam karna chalu kiya
…actoron ki dunia se hum 'no issues' ki duniya mein aa gaye ..mails and messanger
and documents and POC and ....


ab 8 baj gaye..chalo ghar jaana hai
maine duur ka rasta liya ... uske cubicle ke baaju wala
woh abhi baithi hai .. i smiled.. she smiled back..gettin late haan ?
i said nahi .. abhi time hai..haan baaaaaas.. ye ek mail ...she said
pressed control + enter ..done ! she said ...

We took the stairs ..yaar sahi mein stairs jaldi pahunchaati hai (kyon !!)
we walked towards the gate
she said aarey meri bus..bye ... she said ...and said.. see you tomorrow sure...i said

kal log puchenge ye light kyon gayi and mein puchunga yaar ye light baar baar kyon nahi jaati...

maana ke light roj nahi jaati hai
per khidki se baahar dekhne mein kya harz hai
khuli saas lene mein kya harz hai
lift mein saamnewaale ke id pe employee id dekhne se acha
Usko ko haske 'hi..' to keh hi sakte hai
forwards toh bahut bhejte hai ..koi personal si mail bhejne mein kya harz hai ....Kyonki doston…
light jaayen yaa naa jaayein
Ye hawa to roj hi chalti hain
saaamne wale cubicle ki ladki…. roj hi sunder dikhti hai..... ;-)